Enjoy THIS Moment
“I feel like I am constantly worrying about the next part of my life without realizing that I’m right in the middle of what I used to look forward to”
I don’t know about you but I have a horrible habit for always wanting more. When I was 12 I wanted to be 16 and driving. When I was 16 I wanted to be 18 and out of high school. When I was 18 I wanted to be married. Even now that I am married I want more, I want a house of our own. But what I have come to realize is I missed so much of life just waiting for my next chapter to start, and as soon as that chapter started I was waiting for the next. What I missed out on was enjoying being 12. Enjoying the awkward stage, late nights with friends, obsessing over boy bands, putting beads in my hair and just being 12. I did all of those things but I didn’t enjoy or cherish them because I was waiting for 16. When I was 16 I took advantage of the fact that I could drive, date, have a later curfew and more responsibilities because I was waiting to be 18. When I turned 18 I never fully enjoyed college parties, dating “more mature guys”, meeting new people, having no curfew or any of the joys of the first year of adulthood because all I wanted was to be married! Now I am married and I find myself all to often thinking “I want to start a family” “I want a house now” “I want more”.
But the truth is 18 year old Kailee would be absolutely be ecstatic to be married to her best friend even if she was living in a little basement apartment. 16 year old Kailee just wanted to know who she was going to marry so knowing that she found the one would have made her over the moon happy. So right now, 20 year old Kailee is recognizing this moment. Recognizing this is what I used to pray for. Realizing I used to say “When I am married I will be happy and content” but the things is here I am (I am very happy don’t get me wrong) but here I am wishing for the next chapter when 2 years ago I would’ve killed to be in this chapter.
Anyway this was a lot of words to basically say ENJOY LIFE! Enjoy this part of your life. The next chapter of your life is inevitable, so enjoy this one while it lasts.